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Have you ever wanted to go to the moon? Not because it'd be fascinating, just because it's far away?
If you know me, met me for a few seconds or want to get to know the first thing I will usually say is that I have a curfew... yup a curfew. If you don't have one I envy you.
My curfew as of now is
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Done? Cool. As I was saying, its hard to be 20 YEARS OLD with an early curfew. If I was back in high school I'll take it but in my 3rd year of college, no. I don't know whats wrong with my parents lately but I think they have finally gone mental. By 9:30-10pm if I'm not home the hysterical calls and texts come pouring in. When I say hysterical I mean yelling like the world is ending. Honestly, the things they yell at me on the phone or in person really bring me down... It hurts, I can't even speak or have a say in anything. It makes me feel worthless.
You know when your parents say "I understand what your going through" I genuinely don't think my parents really understand though. As I'm getting older my schedule gets busier such as: school, work, church, school clubs and social life.(Sometimes I get busy on purpose so I'm not home) Thats normal for a girl my age to be busy and living life but apparently my parents believe in hibernation 24-7/365. As I said before if I'm not at home by 10 hell breaks loose and it DRIVES ME INSANE.
In life we need to make mistakes to learn, to grow but by sheltering someone (or as i say caging them or holding them hostage or not allowing them to breathe) from the world is, to me, horrible. We all need to burn our hands on the stove to know its hot thats life. It feels like you can't breathe and theres no way out. It is mentally exhausting.
I know I'm not and I can't fully understand why they do this but I've been living on a short leash for way to long. Not being able to do things with friends or get involved in places because the fear of "oh this event might pass 10" and then my parents yelling at me is not worth it. I know they are not going to lift the curfew but hopefully by January I'm out of here and so long curfew for its time to take a deep breath and finally live.
What I've been doing lately:
Zedd re-tweeted me... I cried.
I was student of the week at my school... be jealous
I was Mary Magdeline in the Easter pageant at my church, Jerusalem's finest
Arts and letters day/week at my college was back and this year was a lot of amazing chalk art
My youth groups new look, mini ultra stage I call it
These 2 make my world happier
Hoped you guys missed me I'll write more I promise... If there is anyone reading this...
Love Katerina
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